Lisa with a lot of nicknames!

When i look at everything in my life, i see nothing to be happy about. When i look recently, i find an amazing boyfriend, great friends, great family and i still feel empty. Why is this?

I think i know but im afraid to say, i know that i should be happy but all i feel is that i want what i did to be right again. It didnt have to be this way, but i cant change the past. I want to hold it, see it, and say that i made a choice that i cant explain. I always said i would be there. When i see myself i hate the reflection and want to punch the glass looking back on me. Why??

Jon knows all my secrets and all my flaws and still i cant be happy; whats wrong with me! i see his love and i love him back but something tells me to stay withdrawn and not fully trust that he’ll be there when i need him. But i know he will be. He hasnt let me down yet so why do i not trust him with my whole entire heart?

Nothing i know is sane, but nothing i dont is insane.

Lisa <3

imafreebitchbaby1:

joey…

OBVIOUSLY!!!!!

You make my head hurt, you make me mad, you make me wanna punch a baby. I dont understand how i can get the correct answer on my test and you still want the work for the answer. I should only have to show it if i get the answer wrong. I just dont understand. You also ask like we are stupid and you talk AT US instead of WITH US! that pisses me off so much!!!!!!

Thanks for understanding professor,

Your very annoyed student

Dear anyone that listens,

i know that my life is normal, that i am very aware of, but when i do go home i realize how much i love my life at school more. where i don’t have to worry about mom’s disappointment, my sisters bitching, and my friends acting like i have forgotten about them. I have never thought i would actually like school more then real life. when stuff in my life does begin to look good, everything changes on a dime. When will my life get normal again, WHEN!? maybe never, maybe once i finally find someone that cares enough to put my education before themselves. I never had a person tell me how much they hate me other then a motherfucker life u, i just want u to leave me alone.

Thanks, lisa <3

my roommates are so annoying! when i dont care if they stay in town on a weekend they both go home, the only weekend i have to study my ass off, they both stay. now this weekend i wanted someone to come up and spend the night one of them stays (i have two roommates DX). i go home next weekend and i cant FUCKING WAIT! it will be amazing to see all my friends and family again.

I tell a guy I love him, then he runs away, he texts me and I never text back because I’m busy all day long and he gets made at me, what am I suppose to do, what am I suppose to say, I LOVE YOU and u ripped my heart out and haven’t done anything to it. Either give it back or throw it away do I can make a new relationship with someone else that wants it for the entire thing that it is!!!!!!!

I hate tuesdays and thursdays!!! i have two classes that i kind-of just want to beat somebody with a paddle with. my HG&D class isnt that bad, just not really to to interesting, but my BM2 class MAKES ME WANNA PUNCH A BABY!!! I am a math major and i am in a class that i shouldnt be in but that stupid placement test kept failing me by the same 3 points every time i took it. OMFG! now im in a class that i wihs i could take in about two weeks and just jump to pre calculus.

signed by a very annoyed girl that wants to punch a young child or a midget right now

In HG&D and I hope my teacher never shows because I don’t wanna be in class

margiepargie asked: LITTLE <3

i love you bigg!! u always know how to make me feel better and ur always so supportive then i need you to be

Dear Matthew,

I did’nt know u at all but my friend just posted a RIP matthew shepard and i was curious why. I’m sorry about what happened to you, nobody deserves to die the way you did, and in such a tragic way.

I wish I had more to say but when i watched a youtube video on you, it almost brought me to tears. I just wanted to say that in my lifetime, things will get better, whether it happens in two years or twenty years. I’ll do it for you matthew.

Lisa Garrity loves you Matthew Shepard <3

tumblrbot asked: WHAT IS YOUR EARLIEST HUMAN MEMORY?

my earliest human memory is….

when i was little, it was my parents, my sister, my aunt and uncle and their son and myself. it was a big thing that ALL of us would go to a resturant in the next town over and we would have the best time! it was a weekly event